A fun 4th of July.

My 4th of July weekend? Kicked ass. I cleaned up my apartment, hung out with my friends, and enjoyed myself. I saw some fireworks, walked around downtown South Bend at night, ate some seriously awesome barbeque (and a few s’mores to boot!), learned a few new card games, watched a hilarously bad movie from the 70s (anyone ever seen Logan’s Run? It is so, so bad.), knit a few dishcloths, and drank some italian sodas in coffeeshops. I’m proud of myself for putting my bed together by myself and figuring out how to setup my tv with my dvd player. (I have no problem putting my computer together, but when it comes to my tv, I’m clueless. I still need to figure out how to hook the Wii up to the DVD player / TV setup!) I did laundry and went grocery shopping (and spent less than 50 bucks on food that will probably last me the next two weeks), took pictures of myself being silly and enjoyed the warm sunshine.

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My family went to Cape Cod this weekend. I think this year will be the first year in my entire life that I will not go to the Cape at all, even for a weekend. I just don’t have the time. I will be visiting my family in August, but we won’t be driving over the Bourne bridge and I won’t be walking along the beach. I’m not all that broken up; of course I’d love to go, but at this point I’d rather just see my family. I haven’t seen any of them since the end of January; none of them have seen my blonde hair. I can’t believe it’s been that long since I’ve seen them.

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My sister posted this picture of myself (I’m on the left in the purple bathing suit), my brother, my mother, and herself online today. It’s a picture that has hung in our cottage on the Cape for as long as I remember. I am six, my sister three, my brother around six months old. It’s strange thinking that picture was taken over twenty years ago! I find it interesting. I’ve always had a good time on the Cape.

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I had a good weekend this weekend. I know recently my weblog’s been more introspective; I think it’s more to do with the place I’m in at my life right now. I’m happier than I’ve been in a long time and though my life isn’t perfect, I’m enjoying things. I’m enjoying going out, enjoying staying in, and in general enjoying myself and the company of others. It’s a nice feeling.

Pizza, beer, and ice cream.

After work yesterday I went to the grocery store and picked up three items; beer, pizza, and ice cream, just because I can. I can come home, eat what I want, drink what I want, watch what I want on television and listen to whatever music I want. Yesterday felt like a pizza, beer, and ice cream day to me, a day to celebrate the fact that I can do things on my own again, that I can do what I want.

I’m considering taking at least one evening a month to spend by myself like this, eating bad food, watching DVDs, relaxing and knowing I can do things on my own. Obviously I prefer the company of others and love to have plans and love to go out, but sometimes, it’s nice to be able to come home and enjoy being alone.

Life is still good. I am still so very happy. My life’s not perfect, not at all, but I’m enjoying things and enjoying where things are going.

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