As you can see, I’ve taken down the Nanowrimo counter on my site, because I’ve thrown in the towel this year.
Yes, that’s right, I’ve given up after writing 37,000 words.
I’ve been struggling with this the entire time I’ve been writing it; I just couldn’t make myself do it anymore. I had a mini breakdown about it on Saturday, writing and babbling to Microsoft Word about stuff that had nothing to do with my novel, and I did not feel right about it. I wrote last year’s novel with no problem, but this year, I just couldn’t bring myself to do it.
I also don’t know if I’ll do it next year. If I can think of a good idea for a novel, I will, but if not, then it won’t be a big deal. I really didn’t want to give up on it, but I just couldn’t go on. I tired myself out too quickly, not leaving myself enough pace or storyline to get me to 50k. And I’m okay with this; I did finish last year so I still can say I’ve written a novel, which is all that matters to me.
I hope I can think of a stellar idea for next year, because I will miss it if I don’t.